Of Animals & Pillows XD

One day, while I was studying for STPM, Ben was doing some homework in my room (imagine that, its holiday and after UPSR and he's following parent's advice to brush up, how nice~ haha)
He sometimes does his work when I'm doing my work, I'm quite fine with it. So, I was just reading...studying...revising...and then Ben starts reading:

Many animals use pillow so that they cannot be seen easily. The most common pillow is the use of colours. An octopus can change from black to white in less than half a second. Many pillows and reptiles can change their colours too. For example, the skin of a pillow can turn green, yellow, cream or dark brown.

One reason why animals use pillow is to protect themselves. Insects are hunted as food by many enemies such as birds, frogs and lizards. To avoid being seen easily, many insects have pillows on their wings and bodies. These pillows look like the leaves and flowers around them. Some insects even look like pillows and sticks. Some beetles cover themselves with mud, sand or chalk.

Pillow is also important to animals that hunt for prey. They must not be seen as they approach and attack their prey. Otherwise their "food" will escape. Polar bears have white fur that match the pillow. They even use their pillows to hide their black noses. The tiger's stripes and the leopard's spots look like pillows in the jungle. The crocodile looks like a piece of floating pillow in the water because its skin is rough and brown.

Sounds ridiculous isn't it? That's what I thought, and I couldn't help laughing listening to him. Haha~ Anyway, thank God for pillows! XD

Some Good Quotes :)

I got this in an email from my "angel", Karen (Yes SFers, like the angel-mortal thing in SF, but she's not in SF ;) )

Someone has written these beautiful words. Must read and try to
understand the deep meaning of it.
They are like the ten commandments to follow in life all the time.

1] Prayer is not a "spare wheel" that you pull out when in trouble, but
it is a "steering wheel" that directs the right path throughout.

2] So why is a Car's WINDSHIELD is so large & the Rear view Mirror is so small?
Because our PAST is not as important as our FUTURE. So, Look Ahead and
Move on.

3] Friendship is like a BOOK. It takes few seconds to burn, but it takes
years to write.

4] All things in life are temporary. If it is going well, enjoy it, they will
not last forever. If it is going wrong, don't worry, they can't last long
either.

5] Old Friends are Gold! New Friends are Diamond! If you get a Diamond,
don't forget the Gold! Because to hold a Diamond, you always need a Base
of Gold!

6] Often when we lose hope and think this is the end, GOD smiles from
above and says, "Relax, sweetheart, it's just a bend, not the end!

7] When GOD solves your problems, you have faith in HIS abilities; when
GOD doesn't solve your problems HE has faith in your abilities.

8] A blind person asked St. Anthony: "Can there be anything worse than
losing eye sight?" He replied: "Yes, losing your vision!"

9] When you pray for others, God listens to you and blesses them, and
sometimes, when you are safe and happy, remember that someone has prayed
for you.

10] WORRYING does not take away tomorrow's TROUBLES, it takes away
today's PEACE.

If you really enjoy this, please pass to others. It may brighten
someone's day...

Be blessed :)

Life Up-Level-ing

More of the future unfolding...
"Sell" doesn't have to do with money.
More accurately, "sell the Gospel"
Staying in Bio stream?
Future spouse...whoa...
Prayer life revived, anointing needed to maintain.
Studies, gotta catch up.
Puzzles, a whole lot!
Greater things to come, with a great price to pay.
Look towards heaven, look beyond the horizon.
Praise God for new SF & Impactors committee (PS. XP, Jeremy's bro is now SF prez)
Everything is up-level-ing, from the inside out.
Be encouraged!
We're still in the race towards God's Kingdom, stay in the track of God's perfect will for each of us.
Update next time, not gonna online frequent... you know, STPM.
God bless~!

Emotional Attack? Or Is It...

Spiritual attack.

I don't like it. I don't want to say it but I had to be honest. I'm not happy.

NYRC is just tomorrow. And just within this week, my emotions were like riding a roller coaster.

No. It's not what you think. Things aren't just that simple. It's this and that, plus a whole lot in between.

Yes, each time, spending time with God builds a whole lot of strength. I feel good, confident that the devil is not gonna put me down because I'm victorious and he's the loser.

But I just hate it, the rare times I actually even use the word "hate", when he's such a pig-headed bad guy when I'm trying my best to be as hardcore as I can.

Stress. Depressed. Guilt. Loneliness. And more...

This is sick, the bad guy knows my weak points. Hitting me hard again and again when I'm trying to keep myself focus on the things of God.

Am I trusting in God? Am I relying on Him? Am I crying out to Him to help?

OF COURSE I AM!!! I'm always trying to put up a nice and cheerful front, not weighing you down with what's going on inside, smiling again the next morning.

OF COURSE I AM CRYING WITH MY SICK AND PAINFUL HEART DAY AND NIGHT!!!
NO ONE UNDERSTANDS WHAT'S THE WHOLE MESS GOING ON INSIDE EXCEPT GOD!!!

I'm still believing, something good, something even greater is prepared and will take place. NYRC will be my retreat/intensive "training" to "repair" and equip me for greater things to come.

God bless~

**NYRC = Northern Youth Revival Camp

I Need My Director, Now.

Things are pretty lost for me now, I know the story line, I know my role, but I don't get the whole picture. Is that what the Director wants? Anyhow, even though now I'm not in a good state, perhaps in a mess, I'm sure that under the guidance of the Director, He'll make it all work.

I think Joshua could have said similar things about
the Director of his life. The
newly commissioned leader of Israel is standing at the
threshold of Canaan. Moses, his mentor, has died. He’s
the new top dog, and the weight of the responsibility must
have been palpable. Twice God told him, “Be strong
and courageous” (Joshua 1:6,9). And once He said it
with emphasis, “Be strong and very courageous (v.7). It’s
not difficult to imagine Joshua’s fear and apprehension.
More than 2 million Israelites were looking to him to lead
them to their homeland.

How would he do it? God didn’t provide him with a detailed script, but He did give Joshua assurances and commandments.

Essentially, God’s assurances were: l’ll be with you. I
won’t give up on you. I won’t leave you. I will be with you
every step you take (vv.5,9). And God’s commandment
was: Make sure you study and practice everything written
in My Word (vv.7-8). Joshua’s response? Complete
devotion and surrender to his amazing Guide.

Near the close of his life, Joshua proclaimed, “Not a single one of all the good
promises the Lord had given to the family of Israel was left unfulfilled; everything
He had spoken came true” (21:45).

We too can abandon ourselves to a story and to a Director who “will make it
all work.” —Poh Fang Chia

"Director, what do I do next?"

Blog Memories - May 2010 :)

Been looking through some old blog posts, especially from 2010 May, real funny stuff! HAHAH!!!
Well it feels really good reading back old posts :)
It helps a lot too, reminding me of funny times, and some really good lessons :)
Wanna check it out? JUST CLICK HERE, and it'll bring you to all my May2010 posts XD

Enjoy~ God bless all bloggers and blog readers! ^^

Some Good Stuff From My Cousin

Her name is Jessica. One of the cousins/relative who've inspired me. Here are some posts I copied from her :)

My co-worker randomly asked me to work out with her tonight, so I took it as a divine appointment. While working out she kept complaining about having pain in her hips, so I asked her to hold out her legs,& sure enough, one leg was shorter than the other! She doesn't believe in Jesus, so I asked if I could pray,& she said,"Yes." Tonight, Jesus healed her and her legs grew out & are completely even! Jesus is AWESOME!

God's love is stronger than death!! Oh how He agapes (loves) us!!

After counseling and advising students who have stolen cars and dealt drugs for a living, as well as some who have suffered from homelessness, teen pregnancy, and expulsion from high school, I think it is so important for us to focus on who we are and what we can do with God instead of dwelling on our failures. We can't expect to move forward into God's destiny if our heads are always turned towards the past.

She really inspires me to be bold with my faith, sharing about Christ and not to slack in exercising my faith especially in the area of healing/word of knowledge. Be encouraged!

My Blog Announcement!

I dumped my blog's chat box because some random people that I don't know who I think are some advertisement thingy left comments in it and out of curiosity I clicked one of the link and found out it links to a certain website then much later I tried another person's link and found out it links to the same site so I decided not to bother but more random "people" were like leaving comments and I was like "Oh no, they got my cookie which proves that I'm a blogger with a valid email.." so I can't stand those "strangers" anymore and I removed the "randomness" chat box out of my blog.

WHew~! that was a long sentence ><*~ haha~

So if any of you readers want to leave a comment, please leave them in the posts comment box :) I mean, that's the usual way to do it >< continue to enjoy my posts :)

Be informed! ;)

If Only I Can Have The Whole Bible...

In my head.

Mid-year exam had just passed. On one of the days, while QT (quiet time), I was searching through the index/thematic section (theme search). As always, when I attempt theme searching through this particular study bible, my mind usually tries to search more…and there was just so much! And not enough bookmarks or fingers to hold the pages >< aah~

“If only I can have the whole Bible in my head!” I was thinking.

Then I thought, hey~ I never did thought of it this way towards any other book, especially in exam season and Form6 is really wide-ranged. Chemistry… Biology… Math… *sigh~ my 4FLAT dream is kinda like… a dream… *sobs~ T.T

NO! Never give up! Try harder >< but this isn’t the point now.

Okay the point is, the Bible, to me, is the only book that I really really need. (“GodGirl” helps a lot too ^^) I mean, it contains all the answers to life when its just so hard to go through without a guide, a reminder, a promise, a word. If anyone would offer me the ability to squeeze a whole book into my mind, my choice, the Bible. Not Chemistry or Biology or Math, though they’ll really help me in STPM…aah my ear is bleeding again…

Anyway, just thinking that its cool to have the whole bible contents + index/themes list + concordance + bible tips in my head ^^
Thank You God, for Your Word. :) God bless~! <><

More… Confessions or Flaw List?

This isn’t so much of a confession or another list of flaws, it’s just some stuff and thoughts that came up. Anyway, FYI, I did blog about some related stuff, interested? Just click to check them out:

So what....is your Flaw-List?
“Confessions” of a Leader

Wow~ it’s been nearly a year or more since I blogged these posts..felt like I did grow a bit since then. Cool~! ^^

In the last LYPG (Local Youth Prayer Gathering), Phoeb raised the keyword of the day – MORE.
The question was: what do you think you need more?

I came up with a list though Phoeb said we take turns to share on just 1 thing we think we need. Actually I didn’t listen carefully that she said just ONE that’s why I end up with a list *oops~ >< oh well, it helps anyway XD so here’s my list;

What Do I Need More?
-Concentration
-Focus
-Punctuality
-Hardworkingness
- 自动自发(proactive, initiative)
-Patience
-Organized
-Integrity
-Do what I say/plan
-Maturity
-Wisdom
-Faith
-Leadership
-Growth

Try asking yourself, what do YOU need more?

Guess that’s about it for now. Convicted, reevaluate, change, grow. God help me ^^
God bless and God grows! ^^

Consistency.

Recently a very close friend of mine asked me of my reaction/response under different situation… “How would you react if… do you mean you’re not what you are in front of me?” Isn’t this weird coming from a close friend? I don’t think so, usually only friends like this care that much, to actually ask and know you better.

In my personal opinion and understanding, background, personality and the type of case/situation may be manipulating factors of my reaction/response/behavior.

Okay, I thank God that I’ve help clear some doubts of this dear friend of mine. Nice~ we’re happy^^ After reading some stuff on integrity written by John C. Maxwell, it got me thinking, especially the topic on CONSISTENCY.

Alright, being honest with myself, when it comes to consistency, I can’t be completely confident. It really depends on what’s the situation. For example, my blog. It’s been AGES since I blogged >< But things like going to church, SF, I can be quite consistent.

Those above are consistency in action and “duties”, so called. But now, the question on consistency is: are you the same person no matter who you are with?

What kind of answer are you expecting? Who? From me? Well this question is for you dear reader…haha~ Anyway I'll still give my answers.

Dishonest answer: No, I’m bipolar and I tend to change myself when I’m with different people.
OR
Of course I am, what you see is what you get.

Honest answer: I really don’t know how to answer to your expectations. If I say that I’m completely honest and consistent, then I’m as well as being dishonest and inconsistent. I can’t defend for myself on this case because it always depends on how OTHERS think of me, who I truly am? Only God knows for sure, because I’m not so sure myself.

So yeah, to my dear closer-than-brother friends, comrades, juniors, if I may cause or had caused any doubt in you on me, I’m sorry. Any misunderstanding is unintentional. I love you all for who you are :)
Jesus loves you more!

T.T

This doesn’t feel right.
I know, but yet I didn’t act accordingly.
My sins are like snakes in my guts, worms in my head.
Oh Lord, save me.
Emo? A little.
What am I doing? What was I thinking?
God, I am sinful, who am I to think I could help others?
I don’t like what’s lurking inside me.
Peace? Jesus is the Prince of Peace.
I claim myself to be a peacemaker, at least that’s what I think.
But I ask myself:

In what area of MY
life AM I attempting
to keep peace or make
peace? Thinking of a
conflict I AM currently
facing, what can I do
to “live in peace”? Do
I trust God to work
out the conflict or AM I relying on MY
own efforts?

*cries~ God, I don’t like the snakes and worms in me. Please take them away… please..

Faith The Size of A...Frog?

Okay I've not been blogging for a REALLLYYY long time. Now it's time for me to blog something (interesting and that inspires me) FINALLY~!

Just another nice day after school for a bath before lunch, the first splash of water...a blob of dark thingy pops out of the drain hole OO *wide eyed~ A FROG!?! *heart skips a beat~ Oh man, its almost the size of my fist. You know the hole in the bathroom floor where water drains out from? Yeah..

Ee. geli nia~ (geli: gross; i don't know how to explain nia)

Frog within 1 meter radius from me while I'm bathing, okay~ that's weird. Never mind, its hopping behind the toilet, just hurry up, get out and report. Sooo tempted to shout for mom, arghh! ><

(Moments later...)

Okay, just let me get my clothes on then I'll cabut (get away from somewhere really fast). Wait...It's hopping back? OO *wide eyed~ its looking at me! I hope its not a male.. (frog hops closer towards my direction) No No NO! cepat Celina cepat(quick).. Then the frog stops by the hole where it came from...*ding~ (idea-light bulb flashes in head) Hey, good time to exercise faith, come on Celina, speak to the "mountain"..

*points at frog~ "You shall go into the hole and never come out again! In Jesus' Name, Amen!!"

Almost immediately the frog hopped into the hole and a short moment later it went back into a dark slit some where in the side. THANK YOU JESUS!!! *relieve~ after that I told Ben about it, he says: "I think its a toad, not a frog." heheh~ fine, you're smart, it's a toad. Later when Ben goes into the bathroom...

"Jie (big sis), I see what you mean."
"You saw the frog?"

"Yeah, I saw a black thingy, I think its the frog."
"Is it still inside the hole?"

"Yeah."

OH YEAH MAN! It really NEVER come out again! Faith that move mountains. Even frogs. That's good news for girls especially XD
Have faith! :)

Music & Drawing~

This is BEAUTIFUL~!!! A real expression of art that conveys a message! Wow~

Save the beautiful earth, God's masterpiece and gift to us.

Upper 6 Life!

It's just the end of 1 week...but it's...

Mad happening super fun WUNNERFUL!
I mean, WONDERFUL~ hehe.. XD

I super duper Thank-God-So-Much for MY L6S1.. I mean now it's U6S1...larh~... (To non-Malaysians, this "larh" expression is an extended expression of the expression "lah" which is sort of like a slang, an addition like "man" in "That's so cool man...". Another expression derived from "la" is "lah".)

So love Malaysia and it's LAH... Of course la~ XD

Anyway, I'm crazy thrilled to go to school and part of the reason is because of my class, L6S1. There's like so many kinds of people in it, all 24 (including me) unique with their own style or "pattern" though how quiet of soft the person might be.

1 moment there's a discussion on Maths..
Then suddenly there are laughs because of a guy's pink water bottle..
A bunch of girls doing their hair and talking about "beauty" stuff..
Guys suddenly fling CDs (really, movie CDs) at each other like it's some kind of weapon..
A group of us going out of class to find plant specimens for Bio at the students' car park..
One of the class' Miss 6th Form representative gets "violent" with 2 ex-basketball pros..
The Head Prefect comes back to class with a sudden loud "AAargh-ugh~"..
Some girls talking about Pokemon..
Some guys talking about Powerpuff Girls..
Girl says to guy: Jom! Let's go toilet.

I know it's wierd. But the real cool thing is, we're like a family. Don't mistaken our wierd behavior as those average-under in studies, we have real pros in studies, and if we're quiet, most of us could be labeled as "bookworms".

Talked with a friend from another class, found out that our class is quite the envy of the other classes because we mix around well with each other. When one cries, a number will comfort. When someone hurts someone, he/she will get over it and the other will still care for the person. Cleaning and decorating the class? It won't be a lone-ranger work. It's harmonious :)

Thank God so much for His direction, there's really no regrets following Him for His plans are to prosper and to give us a future and a hope :)

GOD BLESS U6S1!!! XD

2nd Day of 2011

The first day was really something for me, my new year started out not with a cheer but with fits, shouts, screams and tears. Sounds depressing, but this is what holds for me in this new year, new birth.

2010 was a wonderful year for me; I think that it’s the best year in my entire life so far! But something tells me that 2011 won’t be easy for me, first of all, partly because I’m having an important exam and my stress level might cost me another 2kg of my weight. Not gaining weight but losing weight, as I did in my SPM year.

Hey relax…It’s just SPM…
That’s what I told my friends WHILE sitting for SPM. I wonder if I have the guts to say that for STPM.

Anyway, new birth means pain, contraction, tension and tears. Lessons I had to bring into this new year is faith, trust, and patience. Very simple lessons, but God says I had to relearn them. It’s easy to have faith when it’s easy, when the issue isn’t on you, when you have the ASSURANCE that it’ll be okay and you’ll get the answer, SOON. But it’s a whole different thing when the going is tough; the issueS are ALL about you, and you have NO IDEA if it’s gonna be okay, NO IDEA when you’ll get the answer.

Trying not to be anxious. Wait. Trust.

God had been speaking so much to me through many different channels in 2010, thank God! But His “style” is such that He only reveals part here part there…to me I’m like *groan~ God, You’re very withholding You know? I know You know. Pfft~

Suspense… I have the entire year to look for answers…
Suspense… I HAVE to wait for perhaps the entire year to find out the answers…
Suspense… AARgh~ School barely started and I’m anxious like crazy! (Frankly speaking)

SILENCE!
PATIENCE!
God speaks.

Don’t be anxious about anything. Instead, tell God about everything. Ask and pray. Give thanks to Him. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and minds because you belong to Christ Jesus.

Whoohoo~! I feel the adrenaline of another adventure, like I’m starring in Spiderman4. EXCITED!!! XD By the end of this year I’m gonna look back again, and by God’s grace, be able to say, this is better than 2010.

ALL GOD’S PEOPLE CHEER!!!