Frozen Hair Girl

Frozen Hair Girl

The picture depicts a girl with frozen hair, so long its frozen to the ground of ice all around, she has a strand of gold hair and appears to be praying but its hard to tell what is her expression because her mouth is not clearly visible. 

Words are expressions of the heart, in this picture the frozen hair represents words that are cold and self-centered. These words are usually expressed from a hardened heart, but it would only make one stuck at a place,without freedom and alone. In the picture the girl's hair is starting to thaw from the top of her head, indicating a change of heart.

As the girl's hair thaw her gold hair shows. The gleaming gold strand shines beautifully, like words that are decorated beautifully and nice to listen. But they come from a heart stubborn with pride, expressed in such a way it is covered up to make them sound nice it is almost convincing. It is not natural, anyway, gold isn't hair, it's metal. 

The girl is kneeling, showing humility and looks as if she is praying, probably sorry for the unpleasant words she had said, hoping to change her character for the better. Words are versatile expressions of the heart whether helpful or not, good or bad. Who knows what the mouth is capable of and what will it say next? After all, it is not drawn in the picture.

~Inspired by a vision from a relative in February, picture drawn on 25th March 2014. 

Be blessed * 

Again, I Cry for Malaysia

Okay~ it’s been a really REALLY long time since I posted/ blogged something long. I have no idea what’s taking so long for Blogger to load the “New Post” page, but anyway, back to the reason I’m typing this. Hehe~

Alright, so I’m typing some thoughts sempena (in conjunction with) Malaysia’s 13th General Election. Nothing really political in this post actually, just thoughts and some personal experience, any info on what’s going on in my country you are welcomed to Google Search. XD *ching smile~

So here goes…

A.S.H.: “Celina, don’t you read the news?? You should learn to read the newspaper, watch the news… there’s so much going on out there and so many problems, if you don’t know, how are you going to pray for the nation?”

Me: “erm… ehheh~”

I don't really read news, I'm not really interested in politics and stuff, and I admit I'm ignorant to some extend concerning nation, world, bad or ANY news that are always reported. Hmm...Yeah happy-go-lucky Celina…

No. I do read news. Not a lot but yeah, I can’t really remember what I read though, sometimes >< Many think that I don’t care, matter of fact is I don’t like reading the news because often times if I do read and THINK about it I feel very shaken and sad. I don’t like feeling sad. Even small news like bullying in school would make me come to tears when I pray. So I read, then I try not to think about it, and life moves on. I know I shouldn’t be like this, oh God forgive me.

Hearing the stuff about what Barisan Nasional (especially the ex-Prime Minister) had done I was like “What~??! That’s just so ego!” I mean, come on if you really care for the people you would’ve realize you’re not doing so much of a good job and let someone else take over. It’s just selfish and obviously you don’t really love Malaysia enough to let Malaysia be in better hands. That ego will definitely bring any leader down, as the Bible says

“Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall.” (Proverbs 16:18 [ESV]). 

Indeed, 

“For the love of money is the root of all kinds of evil. And some people, craving money, have wandered from the true faith and pierced themselves with many sorrows.” (1Timothy 6:10 [NLT]).

Again, I cried for Malaysia. Just the last Thursday night we had prayer meeting at church, Freda let us watch a video of prophecies over Malaysia from a group of brothers and sisters in Jerusalem. I just can’t hold back my tears as I hear of God’s mercy and grace over Malaysia, that there will be great change, so much so that I myself couldn’t really believe it. Besides things considering about our government, there is also declarations of Salvation in Malaysia and alliance with Israel, only God’s people would understand the magnitude of this significance.

The ring I wear is a commitment to God to be a Prayer Pillar, however much I don’t like to cry and feel heartbroken I will say yes to Him to feel His heartbeat for Malaysia and to use my tears, lament and travailing for His glory. Not just a Prayer Pillar but also a Gatekeeper. So cool, Gatekeeper~ haha XD
Was Google-searching “prophetic word for Malaysia” and look what I found ^^ check out these links:

http://allenstae.blogspot.com/2012/08/the-three-prophecies-on-malaysia-by-rev.html

http://limpohann.blogspot.com/2013/03/heeding-prophecy-for-malaysia.html

Be encouraged everyone. God bless Malaysia!

STPM results are OUT?

Not yet XD

Haha~! Soon, soon >< Argh... I'm excited yet nervous yet anxious yet... like that lorh~

I don't even dare simply pray about the matter, it's like there's nothing much, nothing really relevant to pray about. If I pray to get what I deserve, manatau (what do you know) I deserve ZERO "A"s.

Aah~ scary.

Had a dream of when STPM results are out. Nightmare. All I know I woke up in the morning feeling so grey and mom was just standing by the door, not really knowing what to say when I gloomily half-mumbled about my dream to her while folding something on my bed.

But you know what, thinking back of how far I've came, being obedient to God on staying back, in the past 1 & 1/2 years He had never let me down. So I confidently say, why won't He do it again for the last time in this phase of my life? XD *ching smile~

I took the 1st step of faith and obedience to His will, and I've enjoyed SO MUCH MORE from my good God just because of this step. In the future, if I answer "YES SIR!" to Him all the way, who knows what great measure of blessings and all the indescribable awesomeness awaits for me!

Here's a question: Can you profit, in ANY way, for disobeying God?

No way.

Remember this as I make it clear to you:
There is NO WAY you can profit for disobeying God.

I don't want to talk big on my results, honestly, I don't dare to >< But I did give my shot and not play play (too much XD) in where God had placed me, so whatever the results, I still thank my God :)

God says in the Bible:"I know the plans I have for you, they are to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" [Jeremiah29v11]


Put your trust in Jesus, He never lets you down :)

Of Animals & Pillows XD

One day, while I was studying for STPM, Ben was doing some homework in my room (imagine that, its holiday and after UPSR and he's following parent's advice to brush up, how nice~ haha)
He sometimes does his work when I'm doing my work, I'm quite fine with it. So, I was just reading...studying...revising...and then Ben starts reading:

Many animals use pillow so that they cannot be seen easily. The most common pillow is the use of colours. An octopus can change from black to white in less than half a second. Many pillows and reptiles can change their colours too. For example, the skin of a pillow can turn green, yellow, cream or dark brown.

One reason why animals use pillow is to protect themselves. Insects are hunted as food by many enemies such as birds, frogs and lizards. To avoid being seen easily, many insects have pillows on their wings and bodies. These pillows look like the leaves and flowers around them. Some insects even look like pillows and sticks. Some beetles cover themselves with mud, sand or chalk.

Pillow is also important to animals that hunt for prey. They must not be seen as they approach and attack their prey. Otherwise their "food" will escape. Polar bears have white fur that match the pillow. They even use their pillows to hide their black noses. The tiger's stripes and the leopard's spots look like pillows in the jungle. The crocodile looks like a piece of floating pillow in the water because its skin is rough and brown.

Sounds ridiculous isn't it? That's what I thought, and I couldn't help laughing listening to him. Haha~ Anyway, thank God for pillows! XD

More… Confessions or Flaw List?

This isn’t so much of a confession or another list of flaws, it’s just some stuff and thoughts that came up. Anyway, FYI, I did blog about some related stuff, interested? Just click to check them out:

So what....is your Flaw-List?
“Confessions” of a Leader

Wow~ it’s been nearly a year or more since I blogged these posts..felt like I did grow a bit since then. Cool~! ^^

In the last LYPG (Local Youth Prayer Gathering), Phoeb raised the keyword of the day – MORE.
The question was: what do you think you need more?

I came up with a list though Phoeb said we take turns to share on just 1 thing we think we need. Actually I didn’t listen carefully that she said just ONE that’s why I end up with a list *oops~ >< oh well, it helps anyway XD so here’s my list;

What Do I Need More?
-Concentration
-Focus
-Punctuality
-Hardworkingness
- 自动自发(proactive, initiative)
-Patience
-Organized
-Integrity
-Do what I say/plan
-Maturity
-Wisdom
-Faith
-Leadership
-Growth

Try asking yourself, what do YOU need more?

Guess that’s about it for now. Convicted, reevaluate, change, grow. God help me ^^
God bless and God grows! ^^

Faith The Size of A...Frog?

Okay I've not been blogging for a REALLLYYY long time. Now it's time for me to blog something (interesting and that inspires me) FINALLY~!

Just another nice day after school for a bath before lunch, the first splash of water...a blob of dark thingy pops out of the drain hole OO *wide eyed~ A FROG!?! *heart skips a beat~ Oh man, its almost the size of my fist. You know the hole in the bathroom floor where water drains out from? Yeah..

Ee. geli nia~ (geli: gross; i don't know how to explain nia)

Frog within 1 meter radius from me while I'm bathing, okay~ that's weird. Never mind, its hopping behind the toilet, just hurry up, get out and report. Sooo tempted to shout for mom, arghh! ><

(Moments later...)

Okay, just let me get my clothes on then I'll cabut (get away from somewhere really fast). Wait...It's hopping back? OO *wide eyed~ its looking at me! I hope its not a male.. (frog hops closer towards my direction) No No NO! cepat Celina cepat(quick).. Then the frog stops by the hole where it came from...*ding~ (idea-light bulb flashes in head) Hey, good time to exercise faith, come on Celina, speak to the "mountain"..

*points at frog~ "You shall go into the hole and never come out again! In Jesus' Name, Amen!!"

Almost immediately the frog hopped into the hole and a short moment later it went back into a dark slit some where in the side. THANK YOU JESUS!!! *relieve~ after that I told Ben about it, he says: "I think its a toad, not a frog." heheh~ fine, you're smart, it's a toad. Later when Ben goes into the bathroom...

"Jie (big sis), I see what you mean."
"You saw the frog?"

"Yeah, I saw a black thingy, I think its the frog."
"Is it still inside the hole?"

"Yeah."

OH YEAH MAN! It really NEVER come out again! Faith that move mountains. Even frogs. That's good news for girls especially XD
Have faith! :)

Upper 6 Life!

It's just the end of 1 week...but it's...

Mad happening super fun WUNNERFUL!
I mean, WONDERFUL~ hehe.. XD

I super duper Thank-God-So-Much for MY L6S1.. I mean now it's U6S1...larh~... (To non-Malaysians, this "larh" expression is an extended expression of the expression "lah" which is sort of like a slang, an addition like "man" in "That's so cool man...". Another expression derived from "la" is "lah".)

So love Malaysia and it's LAH... Of course la~ XD

Anyway, I'm crazy thrilled to go to school and part of the reason is because of my class, L6S1. There's like so many kinds of people in it, all 24 (including me) unique with their own style or "pattern" though how quiet of soft the person might be.

1 moment there's a discussion on Maths..
Then suddenly there are laughs because of a guy's pink water bottle..
A bunch of girls doing their hair and talking about "beauty" stuff..
Guys suddenly fling CDs (really, movie CDs) at each other like it's some kind of weapon..
A group of us going out of class to find plant specimens for Bio at the students' car park..
One of the class' Miss 6th Form representative gets "violent" with 2 ex-basketball pros..
The Head Prefect comes back to class with a sudden loud "AAargh-ugh~"..
Some girls talking about Pokemon..
Some guys talking about Powerpuff Girls..
Girl says to guy: Jom! Let's go toilet.

I know it's wierd. But the real cool thing is, we're like a family. Don't mistaken our wierd behavior as those average-under in studies, we have real pros in studies, and if we're quiet, most of us could be labeled as "bookworms".

Talked with a friend from another class, found out that our class is quite the envy of the other classes because we mix around well with each other. When one cries, a number will comfort. When someone hurts someone, he/she will get over it and the other will still care for the person. Cleaning and decorating the class? It won't be a lone-ranger work. It's harmonious :)

Thank God so much for His direction, there's really no regrets following Him for His plans are to prosper and to give us a future and a hope :)

GOD BLESS U6S1!!! XD

Naruto's Back!

I mean, my Naruto name stickers are back! Hehe~
Jed got me this bunch of name stickers with Naruto characters on it but I lost it a few years ago.
How did I find it? Okay here's the scene:

Ma is tidying bookshelf.
Ma is taking out books.
Ma is taking out papers.
Ma stack books and papers on the floor.
Ma picks up a plastic covered sheet of paper.
Ma looks at paper.
Ma puts paper back on stack.
Ma continues to tidy up.
Ma becomes curious.
Ma picks up plastic covered paper again.
Ma look at it.
Ma turns paper around.
Ma sees 61 stickers with Naruto and Celina's name on it.
Ma calls Celina.
Ma explains what happened....

Do I have to repeat myself? Nah...guess not. Anyway, my Ma takes the "search" credit ^^

Yay~! It's alive...!!! *muahahaha~ Don't worry, I've been delivered from Naruto. No more Naruto fan (or as my seniors called me, "Naruto". Serious! They call me Naruto when they see me ><) But I'm still sticking with "Naruto" as my bowling name XD Anyway, I've had to admit I've misled many juniors (even seniors) to "follow" Naruto. Naruto is undoubtedly cool, top manga and anime for like... a very long time. But behind all the "jutsu" and "chakra" stuff lies a mix of Japanese, Indian, and even Chinese divination. Naruto himself is a host (Jinchuuriki) for one out of nine tailed demons (Bijuu) and his is a nine-tailed demon fox (Kyuubi). The creation of these "demons" from Masashi Kishimoto are not merely imagination, there are actually myths and history behind them. Here's a page on these stuff if you want to find more: http://www.leafninja.com/jinchuuriki.php
Kishimoto really did quite some research, no wonder Naruto had been and still is a big impact.

These are just barely 20% of the "witch-y" stuff in Naruto. After I know the dark stuff I actually continued to read until more demons and hell-ish stuff appeared in later episodes (Epi 400+) Then I stop following Naruto episodes all together, well frankly, partly because I don't have the time too><

Anyway, thank God for His deliverance, discernment, and my Ma ^^ hehe..

...Watch what you put into your head......

11th & 12th Dec~

Feeling a little bored, lost to blog…let’s see, anything interesting these few days?
Yesterday morning, woke up to a random father who went to market himself early in the morning and bought chicken and seafood. Assigned me to prepare and marinate them. Reason? Barbeque dinner!

“Did Pa say when he’ll do this?” Ma asked.
“Nope. Err...Yes! He just told me to marinate this stuff for TONIGHT.”

What was I saying?><

Anyway, it was a pretty nice day, nice food, nice fellowship, yum~ ^^

Oh! That afternoon I did a little gift shopping, and came home with a mini dress for Christmas and I actually liked it and picked it for myself *Flashes smile~ XD What an accomplishment!

Hm… what else is new? Ah~ today went to Penang for brace appointment and back. Doc said I’ll brace-off at 16th Jan! Whoohoo~! Can’t show my full enthusiasm as Doc was poking around inside my mouth when he break the news, just a loud “OWH-gh”.

Listened to Donut Man while travelling, suddenly Pa started singing along *chuckles~ XD
“Can you please switch it off?”
*??~
“This is like a lullaby… I’m so SLEEPY!”

HAHAH~! This just proves Donut Man songs are peaceful ^^~

Dumdeedumdum~ God bless ye!

Reminiscing NSCFL Camp ‘07

I think it’s exactly 3 years since then, I’ve taken out the “goodie bag” a while ago and look through the stuff.Some pictures from NSCFL (National School Christian Fellowship Leaders) Camp at "Seminari Theologi Malaysia" in Seremban:





The Teams with their cheer!









Devotion:






Picnic lunch! XD




more pictures~



HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARISSA!


Talk about rebel, and promises:



MUAHAHA~ Games time! XD










Great time of worship and coming before God~






My favorite part of the camp, "Selah" day, praying for CFs around the country (featuring: feet washers):

















Here’s part of the letter from the Scripture Union team which reflects about their thoughts on the event.I also almost forgot about the note of promise to God that we wrote during camp. Have you made any promises to God before that you had forgotten or had just put aside?I heard the main character of a series called “F.B. Eye” quoted something like this:
“Sometimes, we need to take a step back to see how far we have gone.”
I think it’s really true. Take a break when you’re tired, look back and reflect, and see how far God has brought you.

Be blessed~