If Only I Can Have The Whole Bible...

In my head.

Mid-year exam had just passed. On one of the days, while QT (quiet time), I was searching through the index/thematic section (theme search). As always, when I attempt theme searching through this particular study bible, my mind usually tries to search more…and there was just so much! And not enough bookmarks or fingers to hold the pages >< aah~

“If only I can have the whole Bible in my head!” I was thinking.

Then I thought, hey~ I never did thought of it this way towards any other book, especially in exam season and Form6 is really wide-ranged. Chemistry… Biology… Math… *sigh~ my 4FLAT dream is kinda like… a dream… *sobs~ T.T

NO! Never give up! Try harder >< but this isn’t the point now.

Okay the point is, the Bible, to me, is the only book that I really really need. (“GodGirl” helps a lot too ^^) I mean, it contains all the answers to life when its just so hard to go through without a guide, a reminder, a promise, a word. If anyone would offer me the ability to squeeze a whole book into my mind, my choice, the Bible. Not Chemistry or Biology or Math, though they’ll really help me in STPM…aah my ear is bleeding again…

Anyway, just thinking that its cool to have the whole bible contents + index/themes list + concordance + bible tips in my head ^^
Thank You God, for Your Word. :) God bless~! <><

More… Confessions or Flaw List?

This isn’t so much of a confession or another list of flaws, it’s just some stuff and thoughts that came up. Anyway, FYI, I did blog about some related stuff, interested? Just click to check them out:

So what....is your Flaw-List?
“Confessions” of a Leader

Wow~ it’s been nearly a year or more since I blogged these posts..felt like I did grow a bit since then. Cool~! ^^

In the last LYPG (Local Youth Prayer Gathering), Phoeb raised the keyword of the day – MORE.
The question was: what do you think you need more?

I came up with a list though Phoeb said we take turns to share on just 1 thing we think we need. Actually I didn’t listen carefully that she said just ONE that’s why I end up with a list *oops~ >< oh well, it helps anyway XD so here’s my list;

What Do I Need More?
-Concentration
-Focus
-Punctuality
-Hardworkingness
- 自动自发(proactive, initiative)
-Patience
-Organized
-Integrity
-Do what I say/plan
-Maturity
-Wisdom
-Faith
-Leadership
-Growth

Try asking yourself, what do YOU need more?

Guess that’s about it for now. Convicted, reevaluate, change, grow. God help me ^^
God bless and God grows! ^^

Consistency.

Recently a very close friend of mine asked me of my reaction/response under different situation… “How would you react if… do you mean you’re not what you are in front of me?” Isn’t this weird coming from a close friend? I don’t think so, usually only friends like this care that much, to actually ask and know you better.

In my personal opinion and understanding, background, personality and the type of case/situation may be manipulating factors of my reaction/response/behavior.

Okay, I thank God that I’ve help clear some doubts of this dear friend of mine. Nice~ we’re happy^^ After reading some stuff on integrity written by John C. Maxwell, it got me thinking, especially the topic on CONSISTENCY.

Alright, being honest with myself, when it comes to consistency, I can’t be completely confident. It really depends on what’s the situation. For example, my blog. It’s been AGES since I blogged >< But things like going to church, SF, I can be quite consistent.

Those above are consistency in action and “duties”, so called. But now, the question on consistency is: are you the same person no matter who you are with?

What kind of answer are you expecting? Who? From me? Well this question is for you dear reader…haha~ Anyway I'll still give my answers.

Dishonest answer: No, I’m bipolar and I tend to change myself when I’m with different people.
OR
Of course I am, what you see is what you get.

Honest answer: I really don’t know how to answer to your expectations. If I say that I’m completely honest and consistent, then I’m as well as being dishonest and inconsistent. I can’t defend for myself on this case because it always depends on how OTHERS think of me, who I truly am? Only God knows for sure, because I’m not so sure myself.

So yeah, to my dear closer-than-brother friends, comrades, juniors, if I may cause or had caused any doubt in you on me, I’m sorry. Any misunderstanding is unintentional. I love you all for who you are :)
Jesus loves you more!

T.T

This doesn’t feel right.
I know, but yet I didn’t act accordingly.
My sins are like snakes in my guts, worms in my head.
Oh Lord, save me.
Emo? A little.
What am I doing? What was I thinking?
God, I am sinful, who am I to think I could help others?
I don’t like what’s lurking inside me.
Peace? Jesus is the Prince of Peace.
I claim myself to be a peacemaker, at least that’s what I think.
But I ask myself:

In what area of MY
life AM I attempting
to keep peace or make
peace? Thinking of a
conflict I AM currently
facing, what can I do
to “live in peace”? Do
I trust God to work
out the conflict or AM I relying on MY
own efforts?

*cries~ God, I don’t like the snakes and worms in me. Please take them away… please..

Faith The Size of A...Frog?

Okay I've not been blogging for a REALLLYYY long time. Now it's time for me to blog something (interesting and that inspires me) FINALLY~!

Just another nice day after school for a bath before lunch, the first splash of water...a blob of dark thingy pops out of the drain hole OO *wide eyed~ A FROG!?! *heart skips a beat~ Oh man, its almost the size of my fist. You know the hole in the bathroom floor where water drains out from? Yeah..

Ee. geli nia~ (geli: gross; i don't know how to explain nia)

Frog within 1 meter radius from me while I'm bathing, okay~ that's weird. Never mind, its hopping behind the toilet, just hurry up, get out and report. Sooo tempted to shout for mom, arghh! ><

(Moments later...)

Okay, just let me get my clothes on then I'll cabut (get away from somewhere really fast). Wait...It's hopping back? OO *wide eyed~ its looking at me! I hope its not a male.. (frog hops closer towards my direction) No No NO! cepat Celina cepat(quick).. Then the frog stops by the hole where it came from...*ding~ (idea-light bulb flashes in head) Hey, good time to exercise faith, come on Celina, speak to the "mountain"..

*points at frog~ "You shall go into the hole and never come out again! In Jesus' Name, Amen!!"

Almost immediately the frog hopped into the hole and a short moment later it went back into a dark slit some where in the side. THANK YOU JESUS!!! *relieve~ after that I told Ben about it, he says: "I think its a toad, not a frog." heheh~ fine, you're smart, it's a toad. Later when Ben goes into the bathroom...

"Jie (big sis), I see what you mean."
"You saw the frog?"

"Yeah, I saw a black thingy, I think its the frog."
"Is it still inside the hole?"

"Yeah."

OH YEAH MAN! It really NEVER come out again! Faith that move mountains. Even frogs. That's good news for girls especially XD
Have faith! :)

Music & Drawing~

This is BEAUTIFUL~!!! A real expression of art that conveys a message! Wow~

Save the beautiful earth, God's masterpiece and gift to us.

Upper 6 Life!

It's just the end of 1 week...but it's...

Mad happening super fun WUNNERFUL!
I mean, WONDERFUL~ hehe.. XD

I super duper Thank-God-So-Much for MY L6S1.. I mean now it's U6S1...larh~... (To non-Malaysians, this "larh" expression is an extended expression of the expression "lah" which is sort of like a slang, an addition like "man" in "That's so cool man...". Another expression derived from "la" is "lah".)

So love Malaysia and it's LAH... Of course la~ XD

Anyway, I'm crazy thrilled to go to school and part of the reason is because of my class, L6S1. There's like so many kinds of people in it, all 24 (including me) unique with their own style or "pattern" though how quiet of soft the person might be.

1 moment there's a discussion on Maths..
Then suddenly there are laughs because of a guy's pink water bottle..
A bunch of girls doing their hair and talking about "beauty" stuff..
Guys suddenly fling CDs (really, movie CDs) at each other like it's some kind of weapon..
A group of us going out of class to find plant specimens for Bio at the students' car park..
One of the class' Miss 6th Form representative gets "violent" with 2 ex-basketball pros..
The Head Prefect comes back to class with a sudden loud "AAargh-ugh~"..
Some girls talking about Pokemon..
Some guys talking about Powerpuff Girls..
Girl says to guy: Jom! Let's go toilet.

I know it's wierd. But the real cool thing is, we're like a family. Don't mistaken our wierd behavior as those average-under in studies, we have real pros in studies, and if we're quiet, most of us could be labeled as "bookworms".

Talked with a friend from another class, found out that our class is quite the envy of the other classes because we mix around well with each other. When one cries, a number will comfort. When someone hurts someone, he/she will get over it and the other will still care for the person. Cleaning and decorating the class? It won't be a lone-ranger work. It's harmonious :)

Thank God so much for His direction, there's really no regrets following Him for His plans are to prosper and to give us a future and a hope :)

GOD BLESS U6S1!!! XD

2nd Day of 2011

The first day was really something for me, my new year started out not with a cheer but with fits, shouts, screams and tears. Sounds depressing, but this is what holds for me in this new year, new birth.

2010 was a wonderful year for me; I think that it’s the best year in my entire life so far! But something tells me that 2011 won’t be easy for me, first of all, partly because I’m having an important exam and my stress level might cost me another 2kg of my weight. Not gaining weight but losing weight, as I did in my SPM year.

Hey relax…It’s just SPM…
That’s what I told my friends WHILE sitting for SPM. I wonder if I have the guts to say that for STPM.

Anyway, new birth means pain, contraction, tension and tears. Lessons I had to bring into this new year is faith, trust, and patience. Very simple lessons, but God says I had to relearn them. It’s easy to have faith when it’s easy, when the issue isn’t on you, when you have the ASSURANCE that it’ll be okay and you’ll get the answer, SOON. But it’s a whole different thing when the going is tough; the issueS are ALL about you, and you have NO IDEA if it’s gonna be okay, NO IDEA when you’ll get the answer.

Trying not to be anxious. Wait. Trust.

God had been speaking so much to me through many different channels in 2010, thank God! But His “style” is such that He only reveals part here part there…to me I’m like *groan~ God, You’re very withholding You know? I know You know. Pfft~

Suspense… I have the entire year to look for answers…
Suspense… I HAVE to wait for perhaps the entire year to find out the answers…
Suspense… AARgh~ School barely started and I’m anxious like crazy! (Frankly speaking)

SILENCE!
PATIENCE!
God speaks.

Don’t be anxious about anything. Instead, tell God about everything. Ask and pray. Give thanks to Him. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and minds because you belong to Christ Jesus.

Whoohoo~! I feel the adrenaline of another adventure, like I’m starring in Spiderman4. EXCITED!!! XD By the end of this year I’m gonna look back again, and by God’s grace, be able to say, this is better than 2010.

ALL GOD’S PEOPLE CHEER!!!